(THIS SHIT DON'T MAKE NO SENSE) DO IT NOW

In these times the people they are on disconnect... All this fucked up shit happening right in motherfuckers eyes and still they no see... So much suffering in the midst of all this plenty... Land as far as a man can see...
So many crowded in city streets. So much insanity labeled mental as long as it's Caucasian... As long as the shooter looks like them... Motherfuckers out here want me to feel pity... Not for the motherfucking beast... Not in this reality... Whole countries decimated to rubble by barbaric needs... Guns and pussy... Crosses and cannons... Trump on the TV pushing racist regime... White superiority the speech on repeat... Preachers on the pulpit praying to the system... God having become an afterthought... White Jesus the mentality reigning supreme... These nightmares are fragments of the Amerikkkan dream... Babes suckling at the breast of the machine... Kindergarten all the way to college... Pawns suffering under corrupt ass kings and queens... Babies twerking on phone and laptop screens... Gunshots in Walmart... Dead bodies and bone chilling screams... The end descending upon us it seems... So much summed up in such simplistic memes... In other times we would've went to war by now...
In these times these words fall in synchopated lines... In these times they fall on deaf ears... In these motherfucking times they done flipped the motherfucking rhyme.

JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY

(SHE PLAYS MY FAVORITE SONG)

You know how you hear a song and it evokes so many memories?
Touches you in special places?
We got sad songs and happy songs, love songs and hate songs .
Some days now she is that song. So many emotions and I. I don't know but I want her in my life.
I like her song... She reminds me of where I come from... The good and the bad, the reality of it all.
I remember her all soft and sweet like milk chocolate.
I remember her hard like the ghettos where we roamed.
Her voice a moment of calm in a terrifyingly real storm.
Broken glass and shattered lives.
Bass beating in Cadillac trunks.
Big rims and the tap, tap, of gunshots.
Police badges glinting in the streetlight shining down.
So many days walking on concrete and surrounded by bricks, glass and steel.
The sounds of life urban in a man made jungle.
Drumbeats and heartbeats fading into the city nights.
Her on I man mind.
So stringent the sound, her tweaking my strings.
The most eloquently sweet song playing in stereo, the melody, so exquisitely unique.
Ahhhh...

JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY

(STANDING IN THE RAIN SCREAMING AT THE SKY) A HAIKU JIT SU SENRYU

(Hydration)
The rain gently falls
Metaphorical in nature
Man stands awestruck

(Hypothetically)
She lingers as drops
Trickling softly down his cheeks
Tempestuously

(Scientifically)
Sparks of light, insight
The essentiality we
Such a mystery

(Spiritually)
Man would ask of she
Eyes cast universally
Silence his answer

(Poetically)
Such a savage thing
This emotion love a beast
Man exits stage right

(Expressed)
Footprints testify
Warriors pass silently
Once he sought of love

JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY

(LET ME SHOW YOU WHAT THIS MOUTH DO)

Let me show you what this mouth do.
How it works.
It's been so long since I've had the chance to do my favorite thing to a woman.
To savor of her flavor, to lick of her fount.
To see her arch as I flick a likkle bit at her clit.
To run my tongue from the bottom of her punani to the top.
Plunge it in.
Push her legs back and see her open up to me.
See that punani pout.
Hear her breath escape from her lips as I lick at her lotus petals.
Let me show you what this mouth do.
How I flutter and hum.
Make that man in the boat stand up.
I wanna make you scream and moan.
Say my name.
Say my motherfucking name.
I wanna drive you insane.
Your droplets glistening in my beard.
I savoring of your essence.
Your juice my sustenance.
The reason for my existence.
Let me show you what this mouth do.

JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY

(THE DO OVER) THE STRINGS OF MY HEART

Since I saw you again all I got on my mind is you... So many memories and all I see is we... Shoulda said these things way back then... Shoulda but you were in his arms... Broke my heart every time I saw you hug him... Everytime you called him bae... My emotions so tucked away... The pain of my past, see? You such a vivid image in my periphery... I so silent in my misery... I so wanting to be the one to hold you... To be your King... You my queen... So many years... So many tears... Falling, falling into my layers... My anguished psyche... These words chained away... My dreams... My dreams... I waking up looking for you... Reaching out... You so far away yet so near... So beautiful that I can't catch my breath... Can't slow my racing blood... So hard to keep these words contained... I man so damn glad to see you again... This is my do over... This is my soft song... Please play it on repeat... Please my queen listen to me.

JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY

(ALL IN MY MIND) DEDICATED TO CHANNON.

I can't get you off my mind... I wake up and there you are... Your smile, your smell, your eyes... Penetrating the hardest levels of I mans mind... Places that I never could have thought would reopen... Love such a long lost emotion... Locked away behind a theoretical steel door... Rusty hinges and a long lost key... I walking away... Head held down... Alone in a savage landscape... Lions, tigers and bears... Scars on my soul... Scars on my skin... I should have said these things so long ago... Sung this song... Put these words to music... Woahhh... Woahhhh... You a 💎, an emerald, a Ruby... These pieces of a mans ❤️ dropping on this pages... Tears of elation running down the crevasses of my face... Thanks to Allah for your creation... Thanks to Allah for bringing you as soothing rain... Life springing from my desert floor... A tangible mirage shimmering in my dusty core... A sip of your H2O... Sustenance for a starving man... So many thoughts... So many feelings... I don't ever wanna lose you no more... My only mission to make you feel like a queen no matter how hard life seems... Even in my waking I savor these dreams... Oh my queen... Oh my queen.

JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY

(YOU AND ONLY YOU)
DEDICATED TO HER

You enter my mind like a meteor screaming to Earth in free fall.
Your skin such a vivid memory, the way the sun reflects off of your chocolaty... I was shattered into tiny fragmented ❤️'s the first time I laid eyes on you.
My love littering the ground like soft 🌹petals.
I don't care how mad I've seen you your voice could never irritate me... It falling on my soul like water softly pattering over a placid waterfall.
Each moment I was around you locked in a treasure chest in my tormented mind.
Jewels glinting in the darkness where the essential me is found... These words I should have spoken so long ago... Even if they wouldn't have changed a thing.
ur situation I mean.
Me in other women's arms, you in another man's... Both of us so incomplete.
All these years I have held these things in the vault of my being.
The way I have loved thee.
My feelings, my hopes, my dream of we.

JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY