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Tuesday, December 11, 2012

[MAN MADE FREAKY DEEK]



[MAN MADE FREAKY DEEK]
THE MUSIC...
http://youtu.be/peB5KggIt8A

Every time I see you I want to kiss that pussy...
I mean you fuck me up.
When I see you walking down the street I just want to push you down and lick that pussy right on the sidewalk as pedestrians stroll by.
Legs all up in the sky.
Phat pussy on my tongue.
When I see you in the grocery store bending over I would just love to just eat that pussy from behind as you ground that clit on my beard and against my chin.
Make you bust a nut among'st the nuts... 
In the back of the bus... the front of the car... right before you go to work.
Every time I see you I want to hear you suck in your breath and watch you as you look down at me flicking your clit.
Making you want me to kiss that pussy anywhere and everywhere.
Anytime.
Look at me when I talk to you.
I want to kiss that pussy.

JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY

AGAIN AND AGAIN


[AGAIN AND AGAIN]
THE MUSIC FOR THIS PIECE...
http://youtu.be/bj3y5vFS3Es

Every time I see you its like the first time all over again as I sigh at your sight.
A sculpture of exquisite lines and designs.
You seem to grow younger as the world grows older...
More beautiful with the passing years.
I see you again for the very first time.




JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY

A MAN ALONE


[A MAN ALONE]
THE MUSIC FOR THIS WRITE...
http://youtu.be/42eIC1VdRVk

He alone as a sea of flesh and blood surrounds him. Waves of humanity lapping at the wood of the boat as he looks for a face he might recognize. One falling away calling his name in a whisper as another rises to take its place. 

All these who would be his friends singing a sirens song... falling away into time and space... becoming all and nothing. 
A tear in the corner of his eye... falling into the wrinkles of his face... taste of salt as it trickles to the corners of his mouth.
He sits back as the day starts to wane... soon to be the night.
He stands and steps into the sea.

[ITS GONNA BE A REVOLUTION] BLACK OPS PART THREE



[ITS GONNA BE A REVOLUTION] BLACK OPS PART THREE
THE SOUNDTRACK...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycR-efOYYRM&feature=share&list=PL24cV6IIynrbwsCBvIFTIR6y5NL7xtceH

I climb into my car and back out of my drive and head to the coffee shop and order my favorite, a Kenyan blend and a sugar free muffin and sit down by the window and read as the day unfolds around me.
Keep in mind that this is kind of new to me at this time.
I am thinking.
What do I really want to know?
How far am I willing to go?
I am sitting there looking out of the window and I look across the street and I see a dude pumping gas and realize that it is her brother. I pick up my cup and head for the door and jaywalk across the street to where he is.
I just wanna talk to him.
You know what I mean?
I nod even though I don't have too.
He doesn't even notice and continues to talk.
I walk up to him and say "Whats up Darryl?" 
He turns around and says "Whats up bro?"
I say "Man I'm sorry to hear about your sister."
He says " Yeah you two were kinda tight in high school weren't you?"
"Man mom is takin this shit hard bro she had two kids you know?"
"Naw I didn't know that bro. I been doing my own thing for awhile."
"Yeah you went to the army didn't you?"
We continued to talk and people from the hood continued to pull up and  walk over and offer condolences and money to the brother.
Its like that in the hood.
We talk for awhile until he says "Man I gotta go."
I tell him its good that I saw him and walk across the street to my car and drive out to the country road and turn in.
I walk into the house and open the basement door and walk over to the lone steel chair and look into the wide eyes of the dude I have strapped there and I say "You killed a friend of mine and you know what I want. This can be easy for you or hard. It does not matter to me."
I show him a knife and I reach to the side of his head and grab his ear and slice. The knife is sharp and his head pulls away and I hold his ear in my hand.
"Do you understand."
He nods through the tears.
I pull the tape from his mouth and he begins to spill the beans.
I listen and stand up and place the pistol in my hand to his temple and pull the trigger.
Fast and clean in a sense ,even though his brains are all over the floor, on his collar.
I walk out and go to my car and drive away.
As I drive through the city I find my mind wandering.
I look around and where others see the junkies and the homeless I see pain.
It is palpable to me.
I pull into the driveway of the man who I work for and walk ring the doorbell and walk in.
We sit around and discuss the business of the day and I leave and take care of the things that I do everyday but today it seems as if I am in a dream. Nothing feels the same.
I find myself again wondering what I should really do.
I finish the day and go home and sit around and smoke awhile before I stand and walk into my study.
I walk to one of the credenzas and open it and lay the items out on it and contemplate my next move.
Somebody is gonna catch pure hell tonight.

JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY


Monday, December 10, 2012

[STUPOR SHOCK]


[STUPOR SHOCK]
THE MUSIC... YOU NEED TO LISTEN...
http://youtu.be/6DuD8L6zI8o

I saw you in the lab of creation and was lost in you, never to be the same again.
Your eyes falling off into the spirit of me as angels hustled about preparing the garden of me for your arrival...
Streams of pure and clean water and succulent fruit picked from healthy trees.
The joy of discovering that you inhabited the same realm as I...
I reached out my hand and brushed your skin and thunder rolled in the distance or was it my beating heart.
So long have we known each other as so many lives have flowed by, become lost to these ravages of time.
So rocky has the road been.
Slavery, domestic violence and segregation... Abortion and genocide as mother fell down an cried to the sun in so many different places.
The lab so far behind as the experiment has gone global and we seem to be drifting apart.
I becoming smaller and smaller in your eyes as the room grows larger.
As I once a man have been made into a shadow of my former self... electronic lies that point to my demise,
Make me into the problem when I but a part have been played... a king lying on its side.
The lab so far away as the war rages on and on...
Once I was lost in you where my roots are found in a dormant state awaiting rejuvenation.
I see you.

JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY

ITS GONNA BE A REVOLUTION


[ITS GONNA BE A REVOLUTION] BLACK OPS PART TWO
THE SOUNDTRACK...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_8xJupkpU6s&feature=share&list=PL24cV6IIynrbGXkQgNgG2F3TXnvA3mgS4


At this point the man stops and pulls a bag from the table sitting next to him and takes some buds of weed out. He asks me if I smoke and I nod yes.
He splits a blunt and fills it with the weed and lights it and as the aroma of the weed reaches me I realize that it is loud. You know... some of that good shit.
He passes it to me and for the next few minutes we talk as we smoke, passing the blunt back and forth.
He ask's me what made me look for him and I tell him that I heard of him from the streets. His name is legend. Yet every time I asked for details no one could or would give them to me. Eventually I decided that it would be smarter to come to the source than to listen to other people anyway.
We finish the blunt and he begins to talk again. I sit back and turn on the recorder back on.
After my first kill It was a while before I killed again.
I joined the army and learned everything I could about war, about how to be a real soldier.
I have always been able to absorb just a little more from things that seem to elude other people and I really was a decent soldier.
I received numerous commendations and awards but it seemed military life was not meant for me.
I was released and came home to a situation worse than any you could imagine.
Crack.
It was everywhere and everywhere I looked it had ripped holes in my community.
I watched as the young men in my community became drug dealers and in a lot of instances got hooked.
I watched as the young sisters and daughters of my friends got hooked and started tricking.
In time I met a drug dealer who became my friend and he knew that I had been in the army and he approached me about protection.
I accepted his offer and soon I was meeting the real players in the drug game.
Doctors, lawyers and politicians. Car dealers and contractors who built mansions that housed the rich.
I dropped payments off and picked up drugs from the drop off points. By this time I was seeing the true nature of things and it was bothering me.
I was conflicted.
I would go home and smoke weed and listen to music and try to ignore the voice inside me that was telling me that I could do something about this situation.
One morning I opened the paper and the picture on the front of it made me stop and stare.
I had not seen her in years and in a way I had forgotten about her consciously but not in my subconscious. I sat down and started to read the story and the rage in me made me jump up and walk back and forth.
She was dead... somebody had to pay.
I met her in high school and she was dark skinned and so fucking beautiful it almost hurt to look at her, I had some classes with her and we became friends. I never had sex with her but just being her friend helped me with other girls.
I sat down and continued to read the story over and over again.
Her head had been cut off and she was found in the back of a building in a drug area where I kind of hung out. I knew that this was a message because I had never really seen her there.
My mind just works like that you know?
I sat there and digested the information and perused on it.
Flipped it back and forth in my mind.
All day I thought it over as I went about and I heard things from the people that I came into contact with.
It was a hit.
 She had been a mule and she had pissed some people off. They suspected that she was a snitch and had ordered her murder.
There were rumors that the men who had killed her were from Miami, there were a lot of dealers from Miami here at one time and they pretty much had their hands deep into the drug trade.
That night I went to the club and spread a little money around with the girls in the club. You know the type, the girls who fucked the drug dealers and big ballers.
Party girls.
I met one and she really dug me so I took her home and fucked her and during the course of the night I continued to feed her cocaine habit and she filled my ears.
I took mental notes and the next morning I went home and started to make phone calls, by the end of the day I knew where to begin.

THAT NIGHT....
I stood on the street corner and pulled on the blunt as I watched the dudes on the other corner as they bullshitted around and listened as their pagers went off.
As the junkies walked up and bought their drugs and hustled off.
I was wearing dark clothes but that seemed to be the norm around here.
well time to get this show on the road I thought and stepped away from the curb and started to pull the hood down on my face.
I was in their midst the before they knew it and the two Walther 9 mm's begin to speak for me.
I shoot everyone who is out there and I intentionally shoot one of them in his right shoulder. he is right handed. I saw that from across the street. The girl that is out there starts to scream and it seems to become a part of the music of the night.
When I am finished 5 dudes lay dead and the girl is still screaming. I walk over to the dude i shot in the shoulder and tie his hands and I stand and say. "Bitch shut up." I say it calmly and she shuts the fuck up.
I walk over to her and I tell her "You did not see a fucking thing."
She nods and I take the roll of hundreds from my pocket and hand it to her. She bends and picks up her purse and tales off her heels and runs off into the night.
I grab dude by his arm and hustle him away as lights start to come on in the houses on the street.
I take him along the path that I laid out earlier in the day and we disappear into the trees and I hustle him along. He is in shock so he complies completely. We come out of the trees and I open the trunk of the car and his eyes grow wide.
I slap him with the Walther that I holding  in my hand and he falls back into the trunk of the car.
I drive out of the city and soon I am at the country road where I am going. I turn in and park behind the house and walk in and light the lamps in the basement and put a lamp on my head and go out to the car and open the trunk.
He is awake and his eyes are wide.
I reach in and help him out and take him into the house and push him down the stairs into the basement.
I strap him to the steel chair and walk out.
I will be back tomorrow.

JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY

Saturday, December 8, 2012

[SHE GOES AWAY]


THE PHOTO IS OF Simphiwe Dana A XHOSA JAZZ SINGER. THE MUSIC IS AS WELL
[SHE GOES AWAY]
THE MUSIC FOR THIS PIECE... MAKE SURE THAT YOU LISTEN TO THIS...
http://youtu.be/119OqGvXQg8

She has been there as long as I can remember.
We were children together back when life was fresh and new...
Flowers and butterflies... fresh tomatoes splashing across young tongues picked from my mothers garden.
When my grandmother died she was there in the dead of night talking me through the pain.
When I reached puberty she gave herself to me... wet dreams and wet sheets.
Waking to memories of her touch... the softness of her skin... the flash of her panties.
When I sat in a jail cell facing three life sentences she came to me as I slept and whispered to me that I would be free... truth overshadows injustice.
She told me to keep writing... that one day thousands would read my words.
Upon my release I did not see her until my son died as she walked up through the rain of my tears that fell behind closed eyelids and into my mind...
She took my hand and told me not to die as she said look around...
Its not your time, though they dont know it these people need you so much.
She came to me and stood at the top of the stairs that dug into a hill ... I passed my son who was three when he died now 19 and when I reached her she sang a song that I awoke and wrote...
R & B for the new millenium...
Do you remember?
When I tried to put down the pen she made me pick it back up... Every time I have tried to give up she shows up and says the things that I need to hear.
She is not the most beautiful woman in the world but to me she is the most lovely woman that I have ever met.
Soft at times and hard when she needs to be... pulling me from the pits of my dispair...
Soothing the beast when he threatens to roam unleashed.
She the queen who fills my dreams.