LOVE QUANDARY

(LOVE QUANDARY) A WOUNDED WARRIORS CRY
THE MUSIC AS WE PROCEED...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IodKBCeNig&feature=youtube_gdata_player

What if I had told you how I really felt?
Would it have mattered?
Would I be a different man?
Would I now instead of knowing of love, be in love?
I wonder.
I see you and my heart breaking leaks blood tears down my weathered cheeks.
Stains falling on my white shirt... Spreading.
Back when I was a young man I had such lofty notions of love.
Where love would take me.
I never imagined the depths of loves pain.
The agony of watching as my baby was lowered into a grave... My love for him only grew stronger that day.
Tears raining from the sky as I and the angels cried.
Me walking away from the woman who was still a part of every fiber, of every cell.
If I had told you would I have avoided all this?
The drunk nights and drug addiction mixed with meaningless sex...
The days spent in jail cells.
The knife twisting in my gut.
Love for a warrior seems only to be an illusion, a mirage of water to a thirsty man, he crawling on knees with hand outstretched.
Trying to reach love.
What if I had told you?
Would it have mattered?
I love you...
I always have.

JERALD HAMZAHFARUQ MURPHY